When I first came to this site, there was a quick message that came up twice from a lady asking for help. She said she was trapped and gave a name. I didnt get the information in time. Cannot find that message now.
I was a fool and spent 15 years in prisons in several states. I was no killer, actually a harmless thief until I was thrown inside were the choice is to either fight or f_c_. It was not an option to submit so I commenced to violence and inside violence becomes a normal daily routine. Violence is the only communication understood inside.
13 years into the 15 that I was inside, I was at the Missouri state penitentiary (the walls-which they dubbed-the bloodiest 47 acres in America because someone was always getting killed and stabbed.
I had a few harsh words with a guy about some weed and this place is not a place where we fist fight, it was all about getting your steal wet. Stabbing and or beating with a blunt object.
So now I was contemplating what I am going to do. If I didnt deal with this man, I might be a target for him or many others just because they will think I am weak.
If stab the dude, I may never get out and I only had about 2 years left of my sentence.
All of a sudden I could hear foot steps coming and I loo up and its 3 guards looking at me through the bars. The Captain in the white shirt yells, "Duncan, your dad is dead, are you gonna hurt anyone or yourself?"
I mumbled "'i'm good" but I was far from good, like a million miles from there.
Immediately I had a thought, I would just stab and kill the man I was contemplating about. Of course I am no killer, and within moments, I dont know how many but just moments later, I was on my knees,
Lord, help me, help me not to hate, help me not to fall apart, take this ugly out of me and let me live for you. "I'M TIRED".
I got rid of my blade before i was to see that dude and then I can't explain it, but the man just disappeared and I never ever seen him again.
Now there are more elements to this story let me break it down.
From that day forward I studied the WORD of GOD, PRAYED and believed, I prayed for JESUS CHRIST to use me and I was given visions of being of service in the world, involved in youth outreach.
I got out in 2006, by the GRACE OF GOD I have been so blessed to see VISIONS MANIFESTING and truly GOD has shown me, if we BELIEVE, we receive.
Don't get me wrong, I still have battles and I am not perfect. There is and was only one who can be perfect and it isn't me.
I was thinking about when I was A kid living in Texas. I was at the Dallas county Boys Home from 1969 to 1971. And it was really the best place for me . I had ran away from home stole cars stealing from stores and smoking cigarettes.I wasn't a bad kid I was just different from kids at my school and my neighborhood. Anyways I got to thinking about the D.C.B.H and wondered if it was still open.And to my great surprise it is . I'm hoping it is still the same place. I had a really good experience the time I was there. Hell I liked it so much whenever it was close to going home I would runaway and that added six more months I had to stay. I ranaway 2 times. All I know is there were Shetland ponies we rode bare back and got them to buck, cows and the best of all little league baseball. We were called the little zips and I loved being a part of that more than anything. I believe the man who was in charge name was Sprout, I had Mr,and Mrs, Johnson as dorm parents at first then I got older it was someone else. God it has been so many years now. I just want kids to know that there are adults who had the same feelings and thoughts as they have.Only difference is it was a long time ago that's it. I pray for you kids that are there now and hope you have only good memories in a time of your life that seems so bad for you. It does get better if you want it to god bless you all.
is there anybody on here that can help me? i am trying to find my son he was transported to dodge from kenosha ibelieve yesterday ive tryed every number and every inmate searh with no success!!! and its worry me to death my son has never been to prison we all are new to this shit so if there is anybody out there with any kind of info iwould really appreciateit thank you